complexities I 2022 june – november formation weighing odd face it's possible same old same old some gold something is very old a softening deal with the forces three times please it's ok new information as one struts and strands smell the promise, neg the entropy two souls, one goal make a note about the no the backlash wall or no wall can you hear the new song? let me tell you a story gems new eyes reach deep inside (if you want to reach for the stars) glory to the Most High little love story 2022 may habit and creativity 2022 february – april everything for a new good habit silent bow embrace the chaos right in between style of walking permeable or are we a still small voice holding up over and over just everything just rocking somewhere beyond 2021 november – december beyond black and white beyond the ice wall shadows of the past scattered remnants rain of all colors shake it off new stage 2021 july – september just a little bit more like me about communication thank God for the rain perfect touch new old goal new structure, new flow more ok than you think shit happens, stay cool bare bones of my mind go forward around and ahead 2020, december – 2021, june ideas and concepts floating around heaven has sent me an angel under attack imagine to be safe dream about relating hidden aspects - what's to keep and what's to let go it will be revealed stones or bubbles? choose joy - as an attitude still standing - standing against carry mountains or play with the clouds defending myself discovering the enemies inside stop feeding the wolves draw a line between you and me vision of a more orderly place every demolition site can turn into a construction site eventually big old stones and a breackthrough what's next? but what about today? just breathe! heavy heavy wants electrify me! (protecting the little ones) can you smell peace in the midst of the epic battle? shifting focus imagine what nurturing would mean to a little one another forced halt.. discover the beauty in the most ordinary moment together we grow better dealing with the stuff 2020, june – november frozen splinter coated squeezy little balls of sorrow heavy heart and tiny counteracts looks like celebration - feels like terror yearning to attach will make you want to run small openings and nuances of change layers of shame - glimmer of hope when your heart is hot with suffering... lowest of low foretells the highest of high remember beauty to withstand some disturbances learning to deal with the impulses rather than cutting them off iterations of experiences until we grow wings to be seen to be laughed at to relax - into ebb and flow I relax just to find a whole new set of holes in my wholeness meet the holes with lots of compassion moving freely and still being a part of something being clueless about the newness every stumbling stone is coming to life and is starting to work in my favor frozen beliefs attract false gods grab the light by the hand and show Him my colorful messy life someone wants to live live live welcome to fluidity lots of help for the stuff that got to me.. down to my bones all the familiar frequencies - and something new when belief systems collide found a frienemy will I find a friend? progress 2020, january – april accepting the weirdness the fortress that is my home checking out the resources there might be some undercurrents and some skeletons in the cupboard letting in some new ideas keeping the fearful parts under control "now don't you worrywe'll all float on alright" allowing to be supported there is still a lot of work to be done detecting the lazy parts staying alert this is the warrior preparing for the big fight some stretching first glimpse here it is:encapsulated and guarded confrontation allowing the surroundings to be informed and affected -can I choose the degree? more of the same - more distribution dare to step over some lines - finally expectations and entitlement 2019, april – november I've got something on my mind so much dreaming and hoping but stuff needs time there might be some growing over time some closeness and some hurt and hitting some walls still growing still dreaming - still unrealistic some attachments - just won't let go this might not be growing in the right direction a new idea bring your trust to the next level are you friendly? alive and playful still so many worries the bigger picture - it might turn out pretty wonderful inspiration - we got you just relax everything is in preparation encounters will happen scientist can only scratch his head strangest thing he's ever seen layers of relationship: who are you? I hate you! I don't care about you... I love you .. that's when: scientist has to shut up for a moment negotiations some open space - let's go create may the waters carry you well and may the stars shine on you gently connected remembering the olden days ready to go play roads of light and shadow im Schotterwiesenparadies – ein Adventskalender 2017, november: Konstanz, heartbreak catching up with life 2016 – 2018: Konstanz, Schobuliweg underneath hot sufferings you can discover subtleties of growth strange impulses leading to strange growth a little bit rusty after a long pause I should really try again and also try some new things, find some new colors am I being strangled? no one should ever know! if I could just spread my wings and fly the road to the planet of love is covered with splinters of splinters of arguing overwhelming sadness - completely decoupled from everything tangible so obvious somehow and still I don't understand - do I refuse to understand? I trust that one day all the difficult stuff will make a lot of sense dreaming about layers of interaction and cooperation in German the same word is used for "sky" and for "heaven": "Himmel" no language - no voice - still silenced there's rhythm and structure behind everything - looks like a strange relationship two old rocks life of splinter can you open up to the realm of the supernatural? will you be ready for a quantum leap? will you recognize all the blessings in your life? catching up with life 2015: Konstanz, Hardtstraße monsters hiding behind monsters nein one day we will celebrate this life together and we will wear the brightest colors and dance with the clouds no no no no more never forget the shoulders you are standing upon - if you forgot try to remember again! reach for a goal and try to stay grounded carry my heart one day we will breathe peace again the overwhelming urge for smooth transitions and very clear boundaries - even if it looks strange - even if there are no obvious reasons encounter (with baggage) heavy heavy cluelessness anger and appeasement death can be such a relief discovery of new sources of life force - structures have to be adapted and a new balance has to be worked out distorted but all the more hopeful the brightest dreams are born in darkness even if it is all a dream never lose sight of what is important - ask Him what He has in mind for you healthy vision a journey – a purgation 2014, august – december: Stuttgart, Senefelderstraße in no time Herbst act of choosing Kaffeefreuden nowhere to go nothing to do geplagt looking down on creation ich will doch nur spielen i missed you soo denn DEIN ist das Reich frustration and joy Selbstgerechtigkeit Stacheln Goldregen